homesick for heaven

Oh Lord how i long to come and be with you. The only thing that seems to bring me joy anymore is sharing your love with others, and still I feel overwhelmed, being homesick for heaven. How is it that people ask me to smile when they don't know how deep the pain is in me longing to be with you. I look around and my heart breaks again and again that people don't know you or run as fast as they can from you. Oh Lord, I have tasted your love and seen your grace, I have come to know your goodness. How is it that we are able to stay and live in this world with our bodies of death. My heart breaks when others wander, but it breaks even more so when I find my own heart wandering astray. How is it that after seeing your goodness I still crave the unfulfilling things of this world. Lord the only reason for me to stay is so that I might draw those I love to you, and to grow even more myself. God I feel incredibly weak. . . so all I do is pray and pray, I fill caught in between death and glory. I want to be completely redeemed, so I will wait for that day. Teach me Lord how to teach others. I don't want to be a babbling fool who has many words with no knowledge thereof. Lord teach me that I might know. Teach me that I might fall in love all the more. Teach me the life in your words. I know enough that I believe, so teach me that they might believe as well. God my heart is breaking for many broken hearts. There were too many strings to this puppet of life that you've cut and now all I have is prayer. So Lord I bow before you. . . Teach me of your love.