rest. . .

I'm caught up in thoughts of the day of my Lord
when I will enter into His rest

Can you imagine the great peace we will have
the great freedom from this strife

Oh to gaze into the eyes of my sweet Lord
to taste the rest He has bought


I'm waiting for the day of rest when I will finally be with my Lord and will fight no more

I am where I am

It's funny how worked up we can get in life running from one thing to another. Today I was stressing myself out trying to think of where I should go and what I should be doing with my life. Then I realized, I am where I am. I've had so many twists and turns in my life I don't know why I keep trying to act like I know where I'm going. Today is all I'm given at the moment. How do you know then how to dream? I guess I will dream big today and do all I can to make this day a great day. Maybe the Lord was right when He said today has enough worries of it's own.

Well this week was my first week of school and there has been so much to do and so many things to read and from it all too much to learn! My goodness I love being here and learning to delight myself in the Lord. I feel like my whole has been to rush rush rush and work work work, but now I'm learning all that is in vain if I don't wait and delight on the the Lord. He's greatest goal is His glory and I want His glory to be my only pleasure. God is a good God =}

"If we should seem at times to be a bit slow, let it be remembered that we do know the direction we are called to go, and as long as we have followed that original urge we have been blessed with success beyond our best expectation. That we maintain our God-revealed direction is vitally important. Let us not fail here." -Towzer

Montana Brrrr....!!!

So today I went for a rafting trip to get to know some of the other students. Let me tell you about our little adventure. We started out in the morning and there were some grey clouds in the sky and the water was freezing but we thought, "hey we can do this, no big deal". YA it turned out to be a big deal. We got in with some shivering and screaming and set off down the river. We were having lots of fun going along playing some games, throwing a football between all of us, and trying to avoid tones of rocks and a log. Soon though it got colder and colder until shivering was no longer a choice. We walked a little ways in the water trying to get to a faster current but soon we were all so frozen and the clouds were only getting darker. So we all climbs out and got to the road with our tubes. Three of the students got out on the road and caught a ride back to our cars. The rest of us tried to stay as warm as we could while waiting for our rescue from the breeze and sprinkling rain. Soon they came and not even two seconds after all the door shut it began to hail. We hit everything perfectly without a second to spare. Praise the Lord. We raced back to our apartments and dried off and got into our warmest clothes then hung out and made chili, corn bread and coffee. mmmm i love college and gotta love that good old Montana weather! Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Bozo love

Well friends, I made it to bozo all safe and sound. I have some really cool roommates. My roomy is from Billings and our apartment roomies are from Oregon and Cali. I'm really excited/nervous for class to start on Monday. Today we had orientation ad I signed up for a work out class which I'm hearing is actually really hard and there's only one or possibly two other girls who are in it with me. So we shall see how this all turns out! I hope you guys can come see my apartment some time it's so nice and cozy. And it's so BIG! Come visit me! =}

homesick for heaven

Oh Lord how i long to come and be with you. The only thing that seems to bring me joy anymore is sharing your love with others, and still I feel overwhelmed, being homesick for heaven. How is it that people ask me to smile when they don't know how deep the pain is in me longing to be with you. I look around and my heart breaks again and again that people don't know you or run as fast as they can from you. Oh Lord, I have tasted your love and seen your grace, I have come to know your goodness. How is it that we are able to stay and live in this world with our bodies of death. My heart breaks when others wander, but it breaks even more so when I find my own heart wandering astray. How is it that after seeing your goodness I still crave the unfulfilling things of this world. Lord the only reason for me to stay is so that I might draw those I love to you, and to grow even more myself. God I feel incredibly weak. . . so all I do is pray and pray, I fill caught in between death and glory. I want to be completely redeemed, so I will wait for that day. Teach me Lord how to teach others. I don't want to be a babbling fool who has many words with no knowledge thereof. Lord teach me that I might know. Teach me that I might fall in love all the more. Teach me the life in your words. I know enough that I believe, so teach me that they might believe as well. God my heart is breaking for many broken hearts. There were too many strings to this puppet of life that you've cut and now all I have is prayer. So Lord I bow before you. . . Teach me of your love.